Thursday, May 7, 2009

Binge Eating and grace

Well, last night I was completely exhausted. Both physically and mentally. I had two days in a row of hard work-outs (BL Cardio Max and 30 minutes of walking followed by 45 minutes of walking and a pilates class on Tuesday). My body was sore, my muscles hurt. My upper back is in pain and my chiro appt isn't until next Friday in Raleigh (PTL) so that tires me even more. So, when I got home I just decided to eat.
I ate some sushi and fried rice at a friend's house. I had some rotisserie chicken, some baked chips, some granola, some pecans, a low-fat ice cream sandwich, some popcorn. Why? Was I hungry - NO. Was I going to go exercise so I needed to fuel my body? NO. I was just tired so I ate.
This is how I justified it: I have flex points. I'm doing Weight Watchers and I have 35 points each week to spend however I want. I've often thought that just tends to make us sin more. Well, last night - that is exactly what it did.
Almost finished with the bowl of popcorn - I sat it down far away from me and said, Kim, stop eating. This isn't right and prayed for forgiveness and grace right then.
God is so good to me. I gained a pound this morning. But, that is in my past. I must step forward in grace today. Eating right, eating to fuel, eating to be pleasing to my God in my choices for what goes in my mouth - and how much.
I have to learn why I eat the way I eat and how God is so much bigger than that reason!

1 comment:

  1. Don't beat yourself up. Each day is a new day with a new chance to do better:o)